Lacklustre and lethargic

 

I haven’t posted a thing for a loooooong time. Thoughts and topics keep cropping up often, but I just don’t feel like ‘moving’…..

Each day I log into the WordPress account, check posts in the Reader, look around on my own blog and sign out.

Today I pushed myself to write this post-let to let anyone who cares know that I am stuck in a ‘lost-the-will-to..’ stage… 😦

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12 responses

  1. I know how you feel I am sure you see if you have read any some of my post the last few months. I will be praying for you. I haven’t been in church much the last 7 months or so. Hadn’t in a while before that since all this with my ex started. Just as soon as I got back into going and was started to go good I got pulled a way by something else. I want to go now and want to do so many things now but like you I do not feel like doing moving to do anything. I force myself to get up and do what I have to do as it is. I prefer to stay in my bed. I really hope things get better for you soon.

    • I wish the same for you because from personal experience I know it is not a good place to be.

      I also know that being happy and positive is not automatic but a choice that we make daily. But even making that choice takes so much effort that I seem to prefer doing nothing over it. Not good. I know. So help me God.

      I am glad to find a kindred soul. I pray that both of us, and any in the same situation and we don’t know of, may soon receive the Grace to better our lives and spiritual state. Stay Blessed.

      P.S: I did read a few of your posts and intend to revisit your blog to read more. Hopefully soooooon… 🙂

  2. Guess what. Bear with me here . . . I started following a blog that belongs to a Catholic Monk, then a Catholic blogger that liked his blog often, which lead me to a Salesian Catholic who awarded you.

    Believe it or not I assumed WordPress was a Catholic site being that Jesus is the Word of God. My last reply to your comment must seem out of context.

    Ever have something like that happen to you? Sooo, how is your day going?

    • Dear Catherine,

      Thank you ever so much for your replies and prayers and kind words.

      We had a holiday season going on here in India and so I had been away from even reading through other people’s posts or replying to comments received on mine. So it took me so long to see and reply to yours.

      My day is ok today. I just wish something nice, something positive would happen just once in a while.

      I look at my son and derive all my joy from him. And everyday thank God that my baby is still with me and I am not yet (and hopefully never) will be dragged through a custody battle.

      Please keep remembering me in your prayers. Especially next tuesday when I have the next divorce hearing.

  3. Writers block, not in the mood? just write one or two words then, keep in touch with people.

    You did ask someone to pray for you. I do not know you, but thought I would share something from my experience:

    Depressed? I am no doctor, but I did have postpartum depression. It starts around six months.

    Just lathargic? If you are not allergic, eat a handful of Mission figs, prime the pump. They have B6 vitamin which makes seretonin to help a depression from chemical imbalance in the brain. I just had some last month because I felt a small squall coming on.

    Too tired to eat? I made cream of wheat. Do not forget a regular check up, if posssible.

    Just need a vacation? Look at google maps at a place you want to see and pull up the streetview, Try Notre Dame, Paris or San Stephen, Bologna, Italy. The buildings are beautiful.

    Love will find a way. I hope you excuse my intrussion, I do not know you so I am in no way saying that you are depressed.

    I am just a brave soul hoping this helps someone.

    • Catherine,

      You have not intruded at all. As a matter of fact, you’ve been very generous and kind to address someone whom you know not at all.

      I am very thankful for your suggestions.

      I don’t know if its a writer’s block (cos I am not much of a writer in the first place) or if i am depressed (I seem to be totally enjoying my son’s company).

      But I do know that I wish I could just start life afresh or just run away somewhere.

      Taking a vacation is not really possible. I cannot go alone anywhere (too selfish, especially considering I have a toddler who depends on me and my financial condition is very tight given the divorce case pending in the court).

      To tell you candidly, I don’t know what is happening in my heart and mind and what it is that I searching for. My spiritual state too is at best lukewarm right now.

      But thank you for taking the time to write the note and giving me the suggestions. Just knowing there are good people like you around in the world who care enough puts a smile on my face.

      • Thank you for replying to my comment. You validated me and that was a healing process for me. So you helped me.

        Regarding “start fresh”: Once I said to someone, “I wish I could start this day over.” They replied, “You wouldn’t want to have to go through that all over again would you? Just keep going.”

        Regarding “heart and mind”: I’m baptised in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Ghost. Jesus has my soul. Priests help us take care of our souls. You probably heard love God with your whole heart, mind, soul, strength and neighbor as yourself.
        Regarding “spiritual state” I am very spiritual. I recently went through a dry period last year. St. John of the Cross talks about.

        Hey, it is the Year of Faith, a special year of State of Grace! I’m gonna hang my hat on that!

        God is Great, God is Good, Let us Thank Him, for our food.

        Thanks, again.

      • God works in mysterious ways indeed….

        I could never imagine my state helping anyone in any manner and yet you said my helped you. I am glad it did. God be praised.

        I am just hanging all my hopes on the prayers of my guardian angel and you lovely people who do offer a little prayer for me. And above all on the fact that Jesus will never give up on me. If He ever did, I will be doomed.

        Thank you Catherine, once again, for caring. Stay Blessed. TC

    • Dear

      Thank you indeed for this encouragement. I receive it gratefully. I wish to request one more thing of you – prayers. Please do remember me in your prayer time.

      Thank you and stay blessed
      Anne

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